Happy Halloween!!

I hope everyone is having a great halloween!! I love this time of year!! Nothing to report on the job front, but it has been a productive day. This morning, despite the high humidity (93%), I ran 4 miles with Runner Susan, Massoman, his BW, Nikko and Donkey. It was hot. I walked a touch, but still finished in 46:32. Not too bad. Not so great either!! I hate it when it is hot. Late this morning a cold front moved through and even though it only dropped like 8 degrees, it feels like it dropped 20!! I love it when it is cold!! I don't have to tell you all that. You all can tell that from my past entries.
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Things are looking up!!

I have not had too many hits on the ol' resume, but then I have only sent out about 15. Runner Susan tells me it takes 20 to get 1 hit. I suppose I will keep trying. In the meantime I have been doing some stellar running!!! The weather, with exception to this morning, has been amazing. I think the cooler weather and decrease in stress with my other old job, I've been motivated to get some really great running in. Tuesday I ran with Massoman, and Runner Susan. We went out for about 4miles. RunnerSusan took her first tumble but saved the tights. I finished in 45:12. I will say I did not stop the clock when she fell, so I could shave a few minutes off. I don't know how much though. Today I met the crew again, minus Massoman (he went way earlier!!) and ran 3 miles. We ran easy this morning. It was humid. Like 81%humidity today!! This morning at 5:30 it was already 67 degrees. Tuesday was 50 degrees and 30% humidity. This folks is why I want to move away from Texas. I want cool/cold weather!! I don't want to be hot anymore. That gets very old. Keeping my chin up!!
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Too bad I was so relaxed!!

This is because just two measely days later I got laid off. I no longer work full time. Some of you may be confused by this because I work so much. I don't work for a company with a boss that has no idea what human respect is. I will leave it at that. I was totally shocked and upset. It basically went something like this: Boss: I have to let you go. This is a basic lay off type of situation. There was nothing you could have done to prevent it. Me: You're kidding right? Boss: No. I am very sorry.
So I went home and cried my eyes out and bawled into the phone to my hotty hubby and then gathered myself to work at the Y for 4 hours. All done with a big fat fake smile on my face the whole time. I learned the art of fakeness from my mother who performed it perfectly everyday of my life as a child. I suppose when you learn from the best, you become the best. Please don't confuse my sincerity with the fakeness I am describing to you now. I am almost never that way. I despised it as a child and now as an adult. I could not cancel my appointments. I need to keep a regular schedule to keep the finances in line if you all know what I mean.
Sunday I went to the grocery with calculator in hand and strict orders to only get what is on that list. I was quite embarrassed. I am sorry if there are some of you out there. In my part of town, you get stared at if you stand there and calculate how much your groceries will cost. It's not that we have to do this, I am just trying really hard to stay with in the budget. Now that I am not bringing in as much I cannot just spend what ever I want at the store. It is quite humbling. I am looking for another job. Hotty hubby and I have decided that we are ready to move away from here. We don't know when or where we will go, but we are pretty sure we are going to move. So if any of you out there know of some one who is hiring an Exercise Physiologist, please post me a comment!!! I could use all of the help I can get!!

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Has it really been that long?

Wow!! Sorry about that!! I am back from a weekend of relaxation!! Forced relaxation!! It rained and rained!! I should have run with Runnersusan on Sunday, but just could not bring myself to get out of bed. I then proceded to scrapbook all day. I mean all day!! It was wonderful. I even signed up for a Restoritative Yoga class. I forgot about it and did not even go. I plan to do some dreadmill running this evening, but I am not sure how far. My eating with the exception of this weekend and today has been really really good. But every now and then even I must cheat!! I am off to work for the evening.
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Last minute registries are not all bad!!

I decided late to do the Benbrook Women's Sprint Tri yesterday. I kept flopping back and forth on whether to do it or not. I did and it was fun!! I arrived early~around 5:40 to tranisition. I went by myself, so there was no stress!!. I got set up and noticed that there were only 3 bikes on my rack. I had all of this room. It was great. I sat and set up and then walked around to see if I knew anyone. I had heard rumors about some Fit2trainers going. I found 2, former Irongirls. It was great to see them. The weather was perfect. Cold at the start and fabulous by the end. I think it was only 70 degrees when I finished at 10am. It was a 300m pool swim so I knew I'd be comfortable. After that was a 13.8 mile bike ride. A 5K run followed the ride. I felt good the whole time. Exept my legs were noodley at the dismount line and I fell. Oops. Not a crash, just a tumble. Hahaha. Here is the break down with comparisons from Irongirl in July.
Swim 300m~6:36 (2:12 pace)
Swim July 500m OW~14:18 (2:52pace)
T1~2:05 (I thought I was quicker)
T1 July~2:34
Bike 13.8miles~47:30 (17.4mph)
Bike 20K July~43:28 (17.1mph)
T2~1:17
T2 July~2:44
Run 5K~39:48 (12:45's)
Run 5K July~45:31 (14:35's)

Overall time: 1:37:17
Overall time July:1:48:50

Progress feels so good!! I did not have any dizziness, numbness, or otherwise weird Horner's syndrome stuff. Yay!! Cooler weather does a body good!!

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Good Morning!!

Hello all! I am proud to report is has cooled off a bit!! Yay!! I am feeling better. I don't know what is wrong with me. I should just relax and enjoy running for running's sake. I should shift my focus away from times and more on the joy I get from running. I can do it. Let's see. Thursday's run was better. I think I have reported on it already. Yesterday I was inspired to do some interval training. I ran 1 mile (12:00) took a rest and ran another (11:45). I went to do some weights (seated ball chest press on cables and standing reverse grip rows) then back to do another mile (11:00). I took a short pit stop and ran one more (10:45). It was nice. I then trained a client and went to a different location and swam 2 x 500 (11:36~I think I counted wrong, and 12:58~see, what's the difference? I swam harder on the 2nd one???). I felt great!! This morning I met a small walking group for a quick walking jaunt to the park and back. It was a cool 59 degrees outside. That is like 20 degrees cooler than my run on Tuesday morning. Fantastic!! After the walk I loaded up the bike and went for a casual 18 mile bike ride. No pushing it, no high heart rates, no timing. Nice. I am now headed off to the other side of FW to register for my 2nd Triathlon. I have to call Runner Susan and tell her I can't run the 10 miles on the schedule. My goal was to get in 2 tri's before the end of the season. And here it is. Besides, for me right now at this moment the tri sounds like more fun than the 10 miles. I could still get that in....just after the tri. I am addicted to the multi sport training. It is fun. Well, I must get to FW and back before the big game comes on at 2:30!! GO SOONERS!!!

Boomer Sooner ya'll!!!

Chin up!!

I am feeling a bit better. It has been really hot. I hate it. I resent it. I will get through it. I am so incredibly far from BQ ing. I don't know if I will ever get there. It is okay. I don't feel like I am doing that much. I workout just about every day. I don't think it necessarily working out hard. Sometimes I do, but some times not. How do multi sport people do it?? I can't even imagine training for an IM!! Or even a half IM. I have been trying to cut back on working out, but it is hard. I depend on it to get through the day. It is my escape. FYI, no running today. 30 minutes of playing around on a volleyball court and 30 minutes on the eliptical watching LOST (highest heart rate=125!!!). I don't consider this too hard. I don't know, maybe I am doing a lot. I expect a lot from myself and I feel crappy if I don't workout. Hummmm. This too shall pass. I will continue to run and try to have fun doing so. It is running season despite the heat and that is what I will do. By the way I have not ridden my bike all week!! Some of you would smile about that. Hahaha!!
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Struggling a bit.

I have to be really honest for just a bit. I am struggling a bit. I don't want to run. I am not motivated to run. It is hot and I am really really angry. After I am angry, I am feeling guilty for being angry. I want to run with my friends. I want to hang out with my friends. I would rather get up at 5 meet them in the parking lot and wait for them to run the mileage and then celebrate with them once they are finished. How does one go from believing that she is meant to run and to touch other people's lives through running all of the sudden find no joy in what she is doing? It is not fun. It hasn't been fun for a year. I am going to end 2006 the way I began it. Lots of good intentions, high expectations, and complete frustration. I am at a bit of a loss. I am going to continue to plog through hard (for me) runs and easy ones too, but I cannot continue to be angry. I want to not feel sorry for myself, but how do I do that with out giving up the very thing I love to do? Be glad that I cannot cool myself on the right side of my body?? I am grieving. I grieving the idea that I might someday BQ. I am sad and upset and want to go back to the way things were. I was not heat sensitive when I first starting running with RunnerSusan. Those were fun times. Now.....not so fun. Not because of Susan, but because I am miserable. I wish I could find some magic pill that would make all of this better. For those of you that know me, know that this is not me. I don't like easy answers. I like to work for everything. I appreciate it more. Perhaps I just have to work even harder to over come this.
Monday workout: 40 minute indoor bike ride (stationary bike)
Tuesday workout: 2 miles running, 2 miles walking, and 2 x 400 in the pool (I had to do something to feel better about myself. The run this morning was rediculous!!)

I can do this. I will get over this eventually. I just hope it is sooner rather than later.
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