From arrgg to ahhhh!!

I am ready for my cape and my initials "SM" for supermom!! I have been so exhausted!! Hotty hubby does not get up during the night to help with our J man. I get it, I am the source of his food. I have gotten more time off, and rightfully so I might add!! I get it already! He, hotty hubby, is just not as "team oriented" as I had hoped!! Too bad!! This is something we will definitely discuss, eventually!! For now I will cherish this time to myself with our J man!! It is time I will never get back!! So I will take it!!

I found out today that my maternity leave is shorter than expected!! As it turns out I have to go back on Wednesday!! Sad!! I could finish my 6 weeks that I wanted, but it would be unpaid!! After receiving the bill from Cook's for J man's 10 day stay, I can't afford to take any unpaid time off!!

I talked to my mom today to vent and she was back to her old self!! I was telling her about my maternity leave issue and mentioned that I had to go shopping because I need some transition clothes!! You see, I worked really hard to get to a size 8 and sometimes a 10 before getting pregnant. I realize that it takes a long time to get back to pre pregnancy shape. For some, they never lose the weight. I won't be one of those people. I have important lifestyle lessons to teach my son. But OMG!! My mom made me feel like a total loser for having to go purchase size 14 dress pants for my early return to work. I would like to thank her for spurring on a great run and welcomed feeling of general sorness!! Thanks for the support ma!! Oh by the way, I had a baby 5 weeks ago!! Geezzz!!

Yesterday hotty hubby hurt his back. He has been walking around like an 80 year old man!! All hunched over and all!! Yikes!! Tonight after work he came in and pointed out some pretty good swelling!! After much discussion and 2 phone calls to his mom and mine, he took 800mg of Advil, put an ice bag on his back, and has been in bed ever since!! We think perhaps that he had hurt it by leaning improperly and sitting too much in this old recliner we have. It is his fave chair and the source of many sour feelings about his workout ethic!! It has significantly gotten better since he has been cycling over the last 2 years or so. I still hate the chair!! I hate what it promotes!! Hopefully hotty hubby will be to his normal self soon! J man misses him!! I miss him!!

I went for my first run in like a year!! I took J man and Nikko!! You should have seen the looks I got!! Picture this: Nikko hooked to my right arm, both hands on the everyday stroller, and a slightly overweight new mom huffing and puffing her way down the trail!! It was either inspiring or one sad sight!! I needed to blow off steam!! I figured if I can walk 3 miles, I should be able run 3 miles!! Well, I did, but only I did it in super slow 3 and 1's!! I started to get all worked up untl I looked down and saw the most inspirational face a mom could see!! I suddenly dropped all frustrations about being overweight, slow, out of shape and out of breath and just ran!! I also began to worry about the shaking the everyday stroller was doing. Let's face it, the trail is not that smooth. Does anyone else run with an every day stroller? J man is not old enough to go in to the jogger stroller, yet. It didn't appear to be too bad, and he appears to be just fine!!!! My legs are quivery, I am exhausted beyond what I thought I would be!! It is sooooo wonderful to feel physically tired!! I have missed this feeling! Curious about the sudden inspiration? Just check out the cute pic at the top of the page!!

I must go for now. If I go to sleep right now, I will get in one hour of rest before having to get up and feed J man again!! How tiring!! Thanks for listening friends! I am not sure what I would do with out you!!

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